Remember that shifty muppet on sesame street that was always sneaking around pushing stolen letters? Then grover says, in a charactistically loud voice, "A letter "L"?!?" and the sneak freaks out "SHHHHHHHHHH!!!"
i have just received my marketing materials... my "gifts," which are the samples we give in order to let people taste and learn enough to decide if they want to try the product for a longer time. The next step is a 90-day trial with a 100% money-back guarantee.
i have been struggling with the innate notion of, and aversion to selling. it's pretty funny that i, who didn't sell any of the chocolate bars in high school, yes, i ate them. All of them. It took 3 weeks, ok? Anyway, I, of all people, have opened my life to this line of business. I have been trying to slip it into the regular action of my life. I haven't found my authentic way yet.
after speaking with one of my mentors (an automatic bonus of this type of organization! he called me just because he thought of me and because i'm new), he told me that, in this business, i have the opportunity to work on my own mission. i get to work towards what i think is good, toward my health and freedom. I get to make my life into all that because i deserve it because i am sharing health and wealth with anyone and everyone in my life. i get to do what comes naturally: helping people feel better. what is cooler or more real than that? so instead of going out of my comfort zone... which i thought i would have to do, i actually have to get really really INTO my comfort zone. i imagine the discomfort will be in the semantics of expressing my joy and enthusiasm in a way that isn't scary. :)
that was all very deep. here is what i am experiencing with my body:
i feel energized. my 3.25-yr-old has decided that he likes his room and is sleeping there all night, so i am sleeping well once i get to sleep. i am having a hard time getting to sleep because my mind is both excited and terrified about launching this new venture! Even so, I am getting anywhere from 6 to 8 hours of real sleep, and i feel really great.
i have lost about 2 sizes in 4 weeks. i am eating better. as i said before, i have the energy to buy fruit and veg, prepare it and eat it... and my cravings for crap are a fraction what they were.
my skin is being very interesting. a month ago, it was on full alert all the time. i didn't know what specifically made it worse or better. i was always tired and felt stressed out, not for anything particularly unusual that everyone doesn't have... just really not peaceful. i am certainly allergic to stress. now, i am getting periods of clearness where i can wash my hands and put on moisturizer without wanting to cry. it clears up to about 80% for a few days, and then i hit one of the triggers: nuts, dairy, soy... on friday night, i was a the neighbour's and playing with the kids and sitting in the grass. i went home and had the worst attack i have had in a month. i had to get in the shower and burn it so i would stop tearing it up with my nails. But i learned not to sit in the grass until i cure this weakened immune system and my allergies go away.
my hubby says that he has been in a bad mood for a while and is bickering with me, waiting for me to blow up. And i'm not. And i said "Really? I hadn't noticed." I had noticed that he was getting angrier than usual because i wouldn't dance in that stupid game we used to play. Huh.
i don't want to be too graphic, but i have only ever been a one crescendo type of gal. i have been having at least 2 every time... that would be twice in the past week. i wonder if i can find multi? Is 2 multi?
the bottom line is this, i was ready and asking for a change. and my openness and positivity have invited this opportunity. i have taken the initiative to change my attitude and my life is falling into place... conspiring to my success. For example, my child just happens to decide 3 weeks ago that he feels safe enough to sleep in his own bed, in his own room? i, all of a sudden, have extra money to splurge on nutritional product? i magically apparated at least 3 intelligent, experienced, inspirational mentors that are helping me learn how to be a leader? NO! None of these things happened without my deciding to ("agreeing to ...") become healthy and wealthy. Yay "Law of Attraction"!
Sweet dreems.
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